In thos neighbourhood lived a woman with a big black dog with a baby like charcater. In the summer they came out of their hot apartment to the shadow of the house and sat there cooling just about all days. Last year around New Year the dog died and she took immediately a new dog but spitz type crossbreed, quite dark in colour. She mourned all the year as if the death had just happened. Now that a year has passed, she is like a person who just came out of a room where someone just died, so much "over" it, so little. First she was in expression for months like out of her mind like in the first moment when a dear one had just died.
I wonder, did in the New Year someone else first die (got shot?), for examplesome younger generation person who would have wanted to get rid of this place and it's ways, and so the big black dog got a lack of luck from it and died without former warning, and so the woman's ordinary ways did not continue, somehow the spirit was lacking, the nice home like ways lacking, even though the environment was much the same.
Can it be that when people mourn the death of their child for a long time, they have gotten used to living just in home circles, being active, skilled, communicating, being rewarded for skills in just family circles, and have less skill and abilities in the wider world. And so if the child dies, their sphere of activity suffers a lot?
I have lost only more distant relatives andets, and tended to mourn only for a quite short period. I am not so social, I do not feel well and free in social relationships, and so when I get left alone, my other activities, my wider sphere of life starts running much better, so that ity carries my life and I am not left longing for the old times. Hobbies, outdoors, going to places, job, reading the newspaper, music, new peaople, new kinds of things to do and new content to life, new books.
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